feel it

inspiration. comes in all forms. a vision. a melody. sweet words.
my heart swoons for love. i feel appreciation from the depth of my soul. thankful for my life, for the words i speak, the light i can see and feel. i can turn on a song, tune in the tv, watch a big screen and be drawn in. my own history is excited. i let go of emotion and let out. it flows freely from me. sometimes it's a lump in my throat over turmoil. other times a tear of joy rolling down my cheek. i care about my emotional state. i don't bother with what others may think. in time they will recognize this passionate soul. admire it for all its wealth of emotion. it's rise and fall. it's ebb & flow.
let your soul out. allow yourself emotion. let out the bad and deal. work on the good and build. soon enough you'll find yourself crying over the beauty of the world. i do.

peace & love. it is not cliche.

t

SURREAL

my heart has felt a penchant for direction. making my own film. it's been a distant tingle i've felt. there is something within that has me feeling it. it's the same process i've noticed on great things that have proven true through out my own history. today i wrote the first synopsis of such a project. and it is all from my heart. those make for the most powerful stories. like anything else in life, heart is essential. of course i am an actor and my first step in this "direction" is making a start as an actor. i take direction so i will eventually direct. what a concept! lol! just like anything else in life. process.

they say patience is a virtue. no shit.

sun lite

sun lite is energy. in sunshine flowers bloom, grass grows, birds chirp. things come alive in light. science backs up faith with age old metaphors. light is good for life. things of light nature on all counts are essential. sun light, light heart, light attitude. if you're attitude is not at ease with the world around you your point of view must change to a lighter side. silver linings. finding good from bad. we do not handle stress well for long durations, physically or emotionally. turn to the light. it's proven by science! LOL! ;-)

i became aware when i opened the blinds this morning and in flooded beautiful warm sunlight. love that shit! :-)

peace for real.

T

tru dat

there always will be something. something that wears on you. holds you back. keeps you from smiling to your fullest potential.
nothing is always smooth. nothing is always easy.
believe the truth of momentum. once you start in a direction you build momentum. true in physics right? aren't we all physics? we are all of the same origin therefor the laws of nature fall true within us all. in everything.

sow momentum. get it started. start! that's the thing, you gotta start and stick to it. discipline is the greatest virtue of all.

tru dat.

Grandma's Car

I pay homage to my grandma and her car by thanking her and her car every time I go for a drive. Grandma's spirit is with me. She is with me all the time. Everyone who has touched me has spirit that resides within me continually. I make that happen. Rich memories of life lessons. I have the essence of everyone with me right now and forever more because of my will to have it. Will power is so underestimated. Learn to see it and appreciate it. Feel it's power. It will take you anywhere you need to be. :-)

Peace be with yo! ;-)

T

light is warm. let it warm you. feel it. belee dat!

i see a light at the end of the tunnel. i see it. i feel it. i'm in the middle of the circle sending myself outward. hollywood, i have been preparing for this moment all my life. i have the life training. i have the business training. i have the emotional training. i have the aesthetic training. i see dreams becoming realities with each passing day. closer and closer. i'm coming yall. i have no limits. i have no restrictions. i let go get up and get going.

thank you God for every miracle of every day.

hell yeah!

;)

breaking heart

my heart breaks this morning. for about 5 days someone has left a dog at home unattended all day long. i hear it barking. this morning it was howling a cry. i couldn't take it anymore. my heart was breaking at the loneliness. i am doing what i can to help that soul. i am taking action. life does not deserve to be lonely. there is no need for it when we are so many. i wish people would think about life in a better way. if we all appreciated it it would make for an easier existence.

love thy neighbor.

tim

pain aint so bad

pain is the ultimate equalizer. we are all equal in pain. we all experience it in different ways. no matter how hardened, there is pain. it is all in the way that we use it. i feel pain. when i do i use it as a release. i release emotions thru pain. pain is necessary. it focuses us on what is important. do not be afraid of pain. embrace it. use it. it is proof of life.

Tim

heart song

i have a lot of messages to deliver.

they are inside of me. they've always been there.

there was always a tingling here or there in my subcosncious every now and again.
i recognize them more now looking back. things i identified with and had no idea why... now i understand.

the more i deliver my messages the more accurate they become. an amazing phenomena! further confirmation that i am doing what i am supposed to be doing.

this is heart. this is soul. this is my song.

express ur thoughts

writing is a medium i enjoy expressing myself through. it solidifies my thoughts and 'erueka' moments. i think them and read them aloud in my mind. transferring those thoughts to words via print involves motor skills, which reinforce habit. in difficult times return to those words. :)

free therapy. i just saved you money. lol! ;-) in all seriousness, therapy is necessary. change from bad habits to good requires therapy. it requires repetition. it requires training like an olympic athlete.

lover and a fighter,

T

words sweet words gotta love them words

a little tune i was beltin out in my head. "werdz, sweet words, gotta luv dem werds"

speaking them, writing them, feeling them, given um. words are important. open up a line of communication that can open up doors to deep relationships you never dreamed so far. i tell you as preacher. and i practice what i preach. i am not perfect, no one is. that's a gift of life. dealing with what you've got and making it the best.

hell yeah.

peace!

t

another day another fiddy cent

Merry Christmas Happy New Year. I say it often and I mean it more than ever. And I've even begun to give a broader expanding gift of yule tide joy. Happy Days! Let's face it. Why wait? LOL! Let us be merry and happy every day, hence my greeting more and more of late, Happy Days. :)

So much on my mind! It's a rat race up there! LOL! What to do next. Who to solicit next. How to solicit. What to solicit? It's all about reaching out there and tapping on everyone's shoulder real easy like and asking them to just listen and look at me for a minute. To just give a chance so I can prove I am here for a reason. And for good reason! I'm working on it and I am abuzz with nervous excitement. Literally!

It's hard work believing in yourself. But we are all here for a reason. For good reason! It all becomes more clear when we start believing more and more in ourselves. Then we will begin to realize why we are here. :-)

Thank you all.

And Happy Days! :-)

Tim

BEEN RAINING FOR DAYS BUT THERE'S SUNSHINE IN MY HEART!

LOL! How's that title for being "chipper"? ;-) Can't help it sometimes. When you're an optimist, things are just more fun. Too bad so many people don't let themselves be more happy.

Good things to be excited about... ok ok so it's been raining for almost a week straight in LA but at least it's not freezing cold! And this morning I had an audition for Dell computers. Got to the audition and sat, waited, chatted with other actors and commented on a cool hat a lady was wearing. Then I wished her happy holidays.

So I finished my Dell audition which could not have gone better, walked towards the door only to be stopped by the lady with the cool hat. She happens to be a casting director and asks if I'd like to audition for a Jim Beam commercial starring Willem Dafoe. "HELL YES!" is my reply as a rip a bigger smile across my face. She instructs me to return at 3:30!

The moral of my freakin story... be nice! Be happy! Spread joy and reap the rewards my friends. Don't make excuses. Just do it!

Happy Holidays Yall!

T Bone Dax Dog ;-)

Good Stuff

It's all good. Everything that is. ;-) All is good if you want it to be.

So I've got a new timdax.net site! Kicks ass! It's one thing if you are talented but it's a whole other thing if you've got business acumen too. So many actors at my level (ground 0 is my level ;) have no idea how to proceed as business people. They don't know how to follow through or commit. How to be nice to EVERYBODY and to enjoy what they are doing. They tend to think it's all about a performance and that's it. LOL! Maybe for one in a billion! Aint happening that way for me. Every day I think of new approaches, new people, new ways of getting me "noticed" by the right people. The easiest beginning in any business persons pursuits is being nice. Saying please and thank you. Following up on commitments. These are the basics one must learn before any type of success is to follow.

~TD~

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