i feel

i feel like sand, impressionable malleable clay with heart and soul. a molasses interior that flows smoothly with the universe. no fast no slow just go... at my own pace... my pace w the universe. steady, regular, consistent. i love how i feel. i love my emotions so deep and strong. tears of joy of pain of recognition. amazement at my wonder. my life my dream. i live more in touch every day. and because of it... my dreams, my heart, my love soars... way way way... so way up i never could dream so big. its out there. your dream. waiting for you. live it. : - )

P E A C E

visceral

visceral visceral visceral this word keeps rocking my mind. visceral. out of nowhere but from somewhere. there is good reason for all.

i've heard a hundred times over the years, visceral. wise men discussing business in design. a visceral approach in design is very fine in any time. visceral. instinctual. to respond with soul is visceral. your soul speaks, you listen, you live, viscerally.

i dig it. i feel it.
don't over analyze.
simplify.
micro-managing may penalize
your emotions to escape
through a bunch of
red tape.
let it be.
come and see.
my light, it is a shining.
it's right under your nose.
peace. ;)

black glove

i stood on the beach in the sand facing the ocean. massive black sea before me with rolling crested crashing waves pounding the shore. voluminous, thick, looming dark blanket of clouds reaching from the sea towards land. a menacing black hand as i could not differ sea from sky, sliding closer. mother nature asserting herself at the will of the universe. black mass, one if by land 2 if by sea. 3 if by sky. got u on all sides.
this glove slowly reaching for land
this glove if u c shall understand
power is mighty, power is grand, look all around u this is all part a plan
not here for nothing, how can u say
look round fool, how do u explain our way
stop the doubt and insecure
cut the shit, fuck demure!
call it out, what is ur name?
assert urself here now
make ur own claim
life is ur's, for u to live
throw ur hands up, learn how to give
learn to surrender, stop the fight
get more with sugar baby than a world of salt might
heed my words, mistake none for trite
listen now, please;

we are free from fight, when we learn love, love, love, and see the light.

:-)

Sandy is a Friend

Dear Sandy,

I wanted to tell you for the short time i've known you you've brought me joy whenever our paths crossed. A brilliant lady; your warm smiles and quick hello's were enough to keep me sailing high and by. you seemed to live by your own rules. no shit. no drama, just you and your great light.

I don't even know your last name. Suppose that's not as important as the imprint you have left on me. Thank you for that.

Please know you'll be missed. And thank you for affecting my life. Thank you. I will always think of you fondly and i will miss you. perhaps our paths shall cross again. Until then your memory is my fuel for life.

See you again.

your friend,

Tim

dia rea in yo face!

when u wana be a freak
so u slip out from ur cheeks
diahreah
diahreah
when u wana be unique
so u leave a big fuckn streak
diahreah
diahreah
if ur hair is curly brown
and theres a turd stain on ur crown
diahrea
yup yup
diahreah

sunlit mornings

the most beautiful thing is a new day. rising sun, birds chirp, dogs chew their bones. sunlight cascading thru windows. sounds of the world waking up. the buz of the day has begun singing such sweet melody.

praise God.

:-)

sound

know what it's like to believe without bounds? faith beyond explanation.

everything has purpose. everything is from the same. life is harmony. the soul of music. all things coming together and working variously in harmony. ;)

tools

realize we all have a guardian angel.

let go of the care to take credit.

pursuit of heart leads to another place, space, time and level. have concern for love at all cost.

sacrifice. sacrifice on all parts of being. discipline. discipline to handle sacrifice. life, a never ending challenge of work but with work comes discipline, discipline - sacrifice.

everything starts getting better. :)

points of view

this morning i felt the physical pain of a shoulder injury i've been dealing with for several months. it's been acute of late. by my own doing of course. i ignored the signs i was already familiar with but too arrogant to acknowledge. now, i can't train anything from my waist up. i'm a bodybuilder. i live to train. but hey, i was too smart to listen to my body. my ego in control. my flaw.

walking my dogs always gives me time to think. they bring such joy to my life. the pleasure of walking them grounds me. they remind me to be thankful. thank God i have an arm to nurse and heal. thank God my arms are still by my side. Thank God i woke this morning and walked my dogs. thank you God.

Thank You.

Tim

feelin it

you know that feeling you get when you are about to do something you want to be good at? Taking a test, picking up a hot date for the first time, stepping onto a stage or speaking in front of others. there's an anxious excitement. you like to avoid it all together but it remains. that's the shit you gotta face. that's the stuff you gotta be feeling to know you're on your path. have passion enough to take chances. make things happen for yourself. take full responsibility for your own ass! no ones fault but yours if shit don't work out. maybe you weren't meant to do what you failed at. learn from it. move the fuck on.

oh i gotta feelin
it's a sweet feelin
its a washin ova me.
takin a chance
no matter circumstance
i work with anxiety.
it makes me real
i'm aware how i feel
i'm alive & livin free.

;-)

what to look out for

take it slow when working a dream. one of the most challenging life experiences for me has been the tattooing of my head. breaking free of worry and of doubt. not only was tattooing my face physically painful but heavily emotional. moving forward on instinct is difficult when first starting. learning to trust is epic. step by small step learn to trust yourself. follow that excitement in your belly. that is who you are. that is who you are meant to be.

laws of a tattooed man

why?
because i live from my heart. my heart spoke, i listened.
i don't like it.
this is me. can't change that. i didn't walk in and look at u and ask... why r u asian? and upon ur answer tell u i don't like u.
why are you telling me this?
i will forgive u.
for being honest?
for being honest.
i am being honest.

honest is what i practice every day.

when we are honest we can easily see what is bad for us and deal accordingly.

honest is virtue, virtue is law.

;-)

feel it

inspiration. comes in all forms. a vision. a melody. sweet words.
my heart swoons for love. i feel appreciation from the depth of my soul. thankful for my life, for the words i speak, the light i can see and feel. i can turn on a song, tune in the tv, watch a big screen and be drawn in. my own history is excited. i let go of emotion and let out. it flows freely from me. sometimes it's a lump in my throat over turmoil. other times a tear of joy rolling down my cheek. i care about my emotional state. i don't bother with what others may think. in time they will recognize this passionate soul. admire it for all its wealth of emotion. it's rise and fall. it's ebb & flow.
let your soul out. allow yourself emotion. let out the bad and deal. work on the good and build. soon enough you'll find yourself crying over the beauty of the world. i do.

peace & love. it is not cliche.

t

SURREAL

my heart has felt a penchant for direction. making my own film. it's been a distant tingle i've felt. there is something within that has me feeling it. it's the same process i've noticed on great things that have proven true through out my own history. today i wrote the first synopsis of such a project. and it is all from my heart. those make for the most powerful stories. like anything else in life, heart is essential. of course i am an actor and my first step in this "direction" is making a start as an actor. i take direction so i will eventually direct. what a concept! lol! just like anything else in life. process.

they say patience is a virtue. no shit.

sun lite

sun lite is energy. in sunshine flowers bloom, grass grows, birds chirp. things come alive in light. science backs up faith with age old metaphors. light is good for life. things of light nature on all counts are essential. sun light, light heart, light attitude. if you're attitude is not at ease with the world around you your point of view must change to a lighter side. silver linings. finding good from bad. we do not handle stress well for long durations, physically or emotionally. turn to the light. it's proven by science! LOL! ;-)

i became aware when i opened the blinds this morning and in flooded beautiful warm sunlight. love that shit! :-)

peace for real.

T