knots & rope

mistakes are knots in a rope. rope is your life line. remember rope is malleable, it can bend, twirl and twist or be taught and straight. then again it can meander and sway. it can also loop round and round and round in circles endlessly repeating itself... round n round... n round.... dizzying round and... ahem.. (excuse me;) you get my point.

mistakes are knots in your rope. climb your rope. follow with fluid abondon. let a mistake, a knot in your rope be the footing you use to push further along your path. climb up yall! ascension is good! ascend thyself and watch those knots unfurl as you pass.

then you will be free. then you'll really be free.

enigma

If u open a door
with-out a key
inside of thee
shall be
the sins of the world.

Weighing weight
Scaling back
Soul ever more scarce
You, the, he or she
Shall disappear
From the realm
Of happy

Go to
Go fro
Go the way
Ur instinct doth sho

Listen up
Listen hard
This is truth
Most divinitively

God is within
God is without
Made in an image
I am him no doubt

Hell yes!
Damn right!
I am here
For my own fight!

Live within
Live without
Live all day long
In a moment no doubt

Expand ur heart
Open ur mind
Love exponentially
And watch dreams explode
With life With vitality
Happy times great family

Life is good
Life is grand
It only takes u 2 understand.

Please understand. Please understand. Please start, little by little, baby step after baby step, piano piano, bit by bit, you, us, we, together will b forever happy.

No doubt.

Peace.

introduction

C’mon down. We’re closer to God than u might think.

Salamander-pink chiffon fabric on the walls of an old school east village tattoo shop. (Kinda shop that existed when getting a tat in NYC was illegal. Small, secluded in the basement of an old tenement building. Imagine that. Tattoo’s… illegal.) Crazy ink splattered designs up and down the halls. Enter small square room. Dark black shiny walls that seem to rise up forever. Cold damp concrete floor. Steel chair and a tattoo gun sit centeredly square. Fluorescent ceiling light seems more like heavens pearly gate shining openly down upon me. Sitting in the chair, needle to my own head I think of the lifetimes of lost love. The sorrow and bitter sting of heart break. My hand guided by spirit painstakingly-meticulous, proceeds methodically and determined. With memories, the pain of pain is ground out. The deep and heavy grinding of 15 precise points hammering thousands a second magnify inside my skull.

I don’t understand it. I used to feel things and deny them. No more. I’m learning to adapt. To go with the flow. U know bro? I’ve been at this game for millennia. Nothings changed but the weather. All you people out there have the same fucked attitude. No worries bro. I’m working it. I gotcha back. See… my time is now homey. Time to shake my money maker. Ha ha! Rock and Roll baby! Only the strong will survive this hooorah muther fucker! Balls to the wall and ready to smash skulls! Fuck you demon mother fuckers! I will have you bitches!

Free the minds of my people! My brothers and sisters! Free the minds or suffer my hammer in time!

Peace out Sucka!

Your Best Worst Nightmare

waking tune

tune in turn out
tune in blurt out
tune in work out
tune in scream, shout
tune in turn on
tune in be on
tune in be-yond
wake up look out
wake up kick out
wake up no doubt
wake up live l-oud

live loud live loud be proud be proud... BE PROUD.

i feel it inside
i let it out
i feel it inside
i let it out
i feel it inside
i let it out i let it out i let it out

live loud live loud be proud be proud...

having fun
having fun
only having fun
why can't we have fun?
lots n lots of fu fu fun? i love fun
its what i do
its there for u
why dontchu c u?
its there for u
right there for u
just reach out and...
have fu fu fu fun lots n lots of fu fu fu fun...

live loud live loud be proud be proud

it resides in u
i can't spell it 4 u
u gotta believe in u
u r who u choose
u just gotta b u

love
it starts with love
love inside u
u got 2 love u
love u love u love u

all u gotto do yo
is love u yo
its all u got yo
why dontcha kno yo?
its on u bro
whyo whyo whyo
love yo love yo LOVE... yo

love urself. forgive urself. understand urself and the world will understand u.

i feel

i feel like sand, impressionable malleable clay with heart and soul. a molasses interior that flows smoothly with the universe. no fast no slow just go... at my own pace... my pace w the universe. steady, regular, consistent. i love how i feel. i love my emotions so deep and strong. tears of joy of pain of recognition. amazement at my wonder. my life my dream. i live more in touch every day. and because of it... my dreams, my heart, my love soars... way way way... so way up i never could dream so big. its out there. your dream. waiting for you. live it. : - )

P E A C E

visceral

visceral visceral visceral this word keeps rocking my mind. visceral. out of nowhere but from somewhere. there is good reason for all.

i've heard a hundred times over the years, visceral. wise men discussing business in design. a visceral approach in design is very fine in any time. visceral. instinctual. to respond with soul is visceral. your soul speaks, you listen, you live, viscerally.

i dig it. i feel it.
don't over analyze.
simplify.
micro-managing may penalize
your emotions to escape
through a bunch of
red tape.
let it be.
come and see.
my light, it is a shining.
it's right under your nose.
peace. ;)

black glove

i stood on the beach in the sand facing the ocean. massive black sea before me with rolling crested crashing waves pounding the shore. voluminous, thick, looming dark blanket of clouds reaching from the sea towards land. a menacing black hand as i could not differ sea from sky, sliding closer. mother nature asserting herself at the will of the universe. black mass, one if by land 2 if by sea. 3 if by sky. got u on all sides.
this glove slowly reaching for land
this glove if u c shall understand
power is mighty, power is grand, look all around u this is all part a plan
not here for nothing, how can u say
look round fool, how do u explain our way
stop the doubt and insecure
cut the shit, fuck demure!
call it out, what is ur name?
assert urself here now
make ur own claim
life is ur's, for u to live
throw ur hands up, learn how to give
learn to surrender, stop the fight
get more with sugar baby than a world of salt might
heed my words, mistake none for trite
listen now, please;

we are free from fight, when we learn love, love, love, and see the light.

:-)

Sandy is a Friend

Dear Sandy,

I wanted to tell you for the short time i've known you you've brought me joy whenever our paths crossed. A brilliant lady; your warm smiles and quick hello's were enough to keep me sailing high and by. you seemed to live by your own rules. no shit. no drama, just you and your great light.

I don't even know your last name. Suppose that's not as important as the imprint you have left on me. Thank you for that.

Please know you'll be missed. And thank you for affecting my life. Thank you. I will always think of you fondly and i will miss you. perhaps our paths shall cross again. Until then your memory is my fuel for life.

See you again.

your friend,

Tim

dia rea in yo face!

when u wana be a freak
so u slip out from ur cheeks
diahreah
diahreah
when u wana be unique
so u leave a big fuckn streak
diahreah
diahreah
if ur hair is curly brown
and theres a turd stain on ur crown
diahrea
yup yup
diahreah

sunlit mornings

the most beautiful thing is a new day. rising sun, birds chirp, dogs chew their bones. sunlight cascading thru windows. sounds of the world waking up. the buz of the day has begun singing such sweet melody.

praise God.

:-)

sound

know what it's like to believe without bounds? faith beyond explanation.

everything has purpose. everything is from the same. life is harmony. the soul of music. all things coming together and working variously in harmony. ;)

tools

realize we all have a guardian angel.

let go of the care to take credit.

pursuit of heart leads to another place, space, time and level. have concern for love at all cost.

sacrifice. sacrifice on all parts of being. discipline. discipline to handle sacrifice. life, a never ending challenge of work but with work comes discipline, discipline - sacrifice.

everything starts getting better. :)

points of view

this morning i felt the physical pain of a shoulder injury i've been dealing with for several months. it's been acute of late. by my own doing of course. i ignored the signs i was already familiar with but too arrogant to acknowledge. now, i can't train anything from my waist up. i'm a bodybuilder. i live to train. but hey, i was too smart to listen to my body. my ego in control. my flaw.

walking my dogs always gives me time to think. they bring such joy to my life. the pleasure of walking them grounds me. they remind me to be thankful. thank God i have an arm to nurse and heal. thank God my arms are still by my side. Thank God i woke this morning and walked my dogs. thank you God.

Thank You.

Tim

feelin it

you know that feeling you get when you are about to do something you want to be good at? Taking a test, picking up a hot date for the first time, stepping onto a stage or speaking in front of others. there's an anxious excitement. you like to avoid it all together but it remains. that's the shit you gotta face. that's the stuff you gotta be feeling to know you're on your path. have passion enough to take chances. make things happen for yourself. take full responsibility for your own ass! no ones fault but yours if shit don't work out. maybe you weren't meant to do what you failed at. learn from it. move the fuck on.

oh i gotta feelin
it's a sweet feelin
its a washin ova me.
takin a chance
no matter circumstance
i work with anxiety.
it makes me real
i'm aware how i feel
i'm alive & livin free.

;-)

what to look out for

take it slow when working a dream. one of the most challenging life experiences for me has been the tattooing of my head. breaking free of worry and of doubt. not only was tattooing my face physically painful but heavily emotional. moving forward on instinct is difficult when first starting. learning to trust is epic. step by small step learn to trust yourself. follow that excitement in your belly. that is who you are. that is who you are meant to be.